So what's the plan here. First and foremost, I want to take a proper trip down Memory Lane (or at least some of it).  I've tried to understand some things about myself and my past, I'm hoping putting pencil to paper will help further that goal.

The first thing I want to address is love. What it is, what it's meant to me, how I've handled it, and ultimately what or if I plan to do with it.  I only really know of one way to tell a story, so let's just go back to the beginning.

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